Have ya ever had one of those days that you just want to sit and cry?

So I'm sitting here bored at work, reading thru everyone's blogs learning about what is going on in everyone's lives, and it just makes me sit here and cry.. I'm so glad that I don't really have anyone around me at work, cuz I'd feel awfully stupid.. Reading about how all the people I went to high school with are married and having babies is really taking a toll on me. I guess I should probably tell you a little why..
Well a couple months ago I started having extreme pain in the lower right side of my abdomen, and into my back. I was having that time of the month, and just figured I was having pretty bad cramps so I didn't think much of it... Well it started getting worse and everyone I talked to told me to call my doctor. Well after 5 phone calls and messages they finally called me back saying I needed to go to an OBGYN. So I made my appointment. Well in the week or so I had to wait I ended up in the ER late one night becuz it got so unbearable I couldn't walk. They did all kind of tests and found nothing wrong. A lady at work told me it sounded to her like endometriosis, so I figured I'd wait to see what the other doctor said. So I finally get into the OBGYN and he does some tests and says he can't seem to find a problem and says it may have to do with my Crohn's disease.. Well I've had Crohn's for years and years, and know exactly what a flare up feels like. This wasn't it. So long story short I made another ER trip, 3 trips to instacare, one to my normal doctor, and finally decided to go to another OBGYN. I was so frustrated getting told that nothing was wrong with me, when I knew there was. I had that time of the month for a month and a half, and was in extreme pain. K well I've never been to medical school, but I know when something isn't right. So I finally got into the new OBGYN on a Friday and told him everything that was going on, and he said it sounded to him like Endometriosis and that he had to do a Diagnostic Laparascopy to be sure. So he hurried and got me scheduled for that coming Wednesday.. I was scared to have to have surgery, but wasn't really that worried about the outcome. I know girls that have it and manage it and are fine.
So Wednesday comes around and I start freaking out.. The doctor said it was a simple procedure, just 2 incisions. One above my pelvic bone and one in my belly button. Cake. So after waiting forever cuz the doctor was running late, and the hospital taking someone into surgery before me I finally get in there and don't remember anything after they started wheeling me outa the room. When I came to I remember the doctor trying to show me pictures of what he had found, and he obviously wasn't listening to how freaking blind I am without my glasses cuz I couldn't see anything but a blur. But he said that he had found a whole mess of it in me. He cautorized it all, but he said that some of it was extremely thick and I'd be pretty sore. He did tell me he had to make another incision on my left hip.. All in all after the fact that I finally made myself get up and walk I, except for some shaky legs and being pretty sore I was fine. Went home and layed down for a while but made sure I'd get up and walk, cuz during the procedure they pump you full of air, and after they can't get it all out. Well that makes for an air bubble that is just floating around in you.. And I can be the first to tell you that IT HURTS! I have no idea how the stupid thing would float to my shoulder, but it did. Walking around was the only thing I could do to get it to float somewhere else and not hurt.
But I was happy he had found the problem and he told me he was going to put me on the depo shot to stop the growth. It totally stops your cycle and makes it so it can't grow. Easy right? Well after that I get told that if I ever want kids I have to seriously start thinking of it in the next little while. He says that when I do they can't be spaced far, because I'll need a hysterectomy in the next few years..
Well that would be just great for someone who is married and all that. Not a 24 year old divorced girl. I've already been terrified of the fact that with my Crohn's I may have some problems getting pregnant when the time comes and now this. I know that this will make it ten times harder to get pregnant and I'm no where close to having that happen.
So here I sit trying to wrap my head around the fact there is a chance I may not be able to have babies when the time is right, and read about everyone else's happy family. I'm not writing this to get sympathy, I know that everyone has troubles and I'll get thru it. I just needed to finally get out my feelings. Its not something I feel like I can just talk to anyone about cuz I get told, "well if its meant to be it will happen" Well thats hard to hear sometimes, I've heard it for 3 1/2 years since getting divorced. I know I don't regret anything in my life because I'm a stronger person, but its hard to think that I woulda been married 6 years this month and already been a mom, and now there's a chance I wont get that.. Its just kind of hard.
Well ok thats enough of the poor me syndrom. It helps to get it out, even if its on my blog for everyone to see. I'm so happy for all of my friends (old high school friends or new) on here that have the cutest little familys. I love reading about the cute things that happen in your life. I hope everyone is well, and I'm sorry that this is not the happiest post, but I finally needed to get out my fears about all of this. Thanks for listening!

New Season

Me and Nikki
Waitin in the cabin for everyone to get off the mountain
Dutchmans Cabin. Looks so good painted.. The trees were so pretty
Lol found us a sweet hat
Yup I know you love this hat
Haulin cows off the mountain
Nikki and Shooter Dog
Such a pretty day
Me and Nikki up Ox Valley
MEOW!! Dressed up for our Trunk or Treat day at work..

Summer time

WOW! There has been so much goin on in the past couple months!! I can't believe it!! This has been a crazy summer!! I guess lets start with a couple months back.. Carson and Rochelle had their baby who is ADORABLE! She's got the chubbiest cheeks! I love her to death! She's getting WAY too big!!

I have been working for Donna Smith at Remax First part time, but recently got a job at Monarch Property Management and they want me full time so I start full time Monday August 1st.. So I'm sad to leave Donna but excited for a new adventure. I think I'm still going to work a couple nights a week for her just after 5 to help her out..

Between working crazy hours and staying busy with friends I've kept myself super busy.. I knew this month would be a little harder on me since on July 19th it had been a year since Lance's accident so I was kinda dreading that, but all in all I did ok.. He was in Denver at Craig Hospital doing a year follow up and they said he's made amazing progress.. And I can see it too.. He's been out camping, fishing, hunting.. Everything he use to do, he just adjusted it so he can still do it.. I'm so happy for him.. I know its been a challenge for all of us, especially him and his family but he's never gave up. I think it has made us all stronger. I admire him for his attitude.. I'm so grateful that I still have him around. I love having him and Carson down the street from me.. I don't always go visit, but its comforting to know if I need something I have my 2 big brothers..

Thats about it with me... Just working and playin and staying super busy.. Here are a few pics to catch up with...

Me and Ames at Wing Nuts

Me and Bailey stuck out to Warner Valley (we were only stuck for 5 hours.. no biggie lol)

Me and Ames on our way to go play

Marisol, Courtney, Amy, and Me (bathroom photo op)

Court, Ames, and Me just walkin into the Gunlock Rodeo

I LOVE these Girls!!!!

Ames is camera happy! lol

Cowgirl Courtney!

Hey Court your hats a lil crooked.. =)

Always a good time w Amy

I have the greatest friends!!

HAHA Amy was in LOVE with Vanilla (Shawn's horse)

Well that about sums it all up! Great friends, great times!

I Got Tagged

I GOT TAGGED!!

Four Jobs I've Had:
1. Receptionist/Office Manager at JC Siding
2. Cashier at Gringo Grill
3. Secretary at Re/Max First
4. Secretary at Re/Max Associates

Four movies I have watched more than once:
1. 8 Seconds
2. Tombstone
3. How to lose a guy in 10 days
4. The Notebook

Four places I have lived:
1. Enterprise
2. St. George
3. Enterprise
4. St. George LOL

Four places I have been:
1.California
2.Brazil
3. Colorado
4. Nevada

Four of my favorite Places to Eat.
1. Samari 21
2. Texas Roadhouse
3. Anything Brazilian
4. Port of Subs

Four things I am looking forward to in the coming year:
1. Summer
2. Camping
3. Going to the Lake
4. Being with family and friends

Four People I am Tagging: (Copy & Paste onto your blog after changing the answers.)
1- Amber Wright
2- Tasha Bracken

3- Autum Christenson

4- Mikalene Ipson

April Already???

Wow times flies! I can't believe its April already!

Well a quick update on whats goin on with me.. And I still need to post pictures from my birthday.. I promise I will!

Well Easter was this past weekend and that was fun.. We went to our usual place on Saturday in Snow Canyon, I think Grandma calls it Hunt's Wash even. But we had our picnic and it was fun to see the family.. I can't believe how many cousins have or are having baby's! CRAZY! I sat and held Erin's lil girl, and she's adorable! It was fun having Lance and his family there.. We were all pretty nervous how gettin his wheelchair in the sand to where we sit was gonna work but dad just turned him around backwards and half drug it while lance used his controls so that was nice to have it so he could sit with us.. I ended up leaving, but everyone else went to go roll Easter Eggs. Lance's family had made a whole bunch and wanted to roll them down the dunes.. So instead of transporting Lance to his truck then back to his chair he just drove it down the road to where he could see all the kids on the dunes.. His chair is motorized so Lane held on to the back and Kelee ran next to him and I followed in my car so people didn't come flyin up on him.. And that worked out pretty well.. Then Sunday was conference so we all got up and went to Carson's for creamed eggs thats another tradition.. So all in all it was a good Easter.. Its nice havin the family down here, I just wish we could convince Tavia into moving down here too.. I would LOVE it..

Well I'm still answering calls at Remax for a couple hours a day, and then workin for Lance a few days a week to clean and organize his house.. But still looking for a full time job..

Other than that just hangin out and havin fun.. I will be sure to post some pictures since I haven't in forever!

Just have to keep pressin forward

Wow its been a while since I've wrote anything about whats goin on.. But really my life's pretty boring and I dont have much to talk about.. Just working and tryin to stay busy.. Its been getting warmer so I've been out shed huntin the last couple weeks, and have HUGE blisters to prove it.. LOL! Cowboy boots were not the best shoe of choice for hiking over oh I dont know, like 3 mountains covered in rocks and lava.. Smart one Tac..
My birthday is comin up next week, so I've been trying to decide what I want to do for it.. I think just hang out this weekend with friends and just be chill.. Not really lookin forward to it this year..
Other than that life's about the same.. Just tryin to work thru some stuff that I knew has been comin up for about 8 months now and its finally here and turns out its harder to watch the people I care most about go thru than I thought it would be.. But hopefully it turns out the best way possible for everybody involved.. So we'll see how it goes.. I'm learnin that I cant always fix the tough stuff, and that I just have to keep pressin foward and hope for the best.. And thats all I've been doin..
Well thats bout it for my exciting life.. Ha ha not so much.. I'm sure I'll put pics up of my birthday and Tavia is comin down to bless the baby and go shed huntin so I'll have better stuff then to write about

Western Jewlery- My new project

So I've started on a new project.. It started by me finding a necklace that my ex husbands friend gave me years and years ago.. I was up to Enterprise goin up to Dutchman's in my old Honda and was looking in the trunk for a flashlight and came apon a necklace that I forgot I had, well it was beaded and had a rowel in the middle.. Well I got this great idea for my Christmas presents for my friends to make a necklace and hang a rowel from it..
Well I went to Sunset Western to buy the rowels and was asking the lady at the counter what she thought matched the necklace I had already made best, and she fell in love with my idea and asked me if I'd sell them there.. So I called mom all excited and away it went.. I was a little busy at first so she ended up making quite a few and that got me started.. So all the ones she's made I dont have pictures of but these ones are mine and I've got a few done that I haven't gotten pictures of..

I already dropped some off at Sunset Western, they are all different colors and way cute.. I think they have 10 of them so far.. So drop by and see them.. They are really cute!!

I also have bracelets, I just don't have any pictures of those ones yet either..


This one is probably my all time favorite, I got the idea from a necklace I got at PacSun.. I love it

This one I took the picture to send to mom before I added the rowel... But I hung it a little different, I put a chain thru the hole in the rowel and hung it that way.. Turned out way cute

Black bull head earings

These are probably my favorite earings I've done so far.. I only have the pink ones made now, but will be doing a ton of other colors.. They turned out way cute

Just simple black rowels

This is one of the first ones I did, I actually had to take the rowel off my necklace that gave me the idea, cuz I couldn't find a rowel in town that was brown.. Only gold or black

This is the one that the lady at Sunset Western seen.. Its fun cuz I haven't found another rowel as big..

More of a simple one..

I'll sell any of these, and if they have already been sold I can make more.. I can do any colors that you want.. You can customize it however you'd like