Update on Lance

So i went up to see lance last nite with carson and to bring home my mom... And i have to say im pretty proud of myself... I only got teary eyed a couple times while in his room.. We made it up in time to see him for a few minutes before the nurses kicked us out.. They make everyone leave the patients from between 7 and 8 30 am and pm.. We didnt think we'd see him before 7 but we did, i was asking the whole way up "how much longer?" "are we gonna make it" "i have to see him before 8 30" im sure carson loved the drive up there.. But we both saw him and sat with him for a few minutes.. Then went to dinner for my dads birthday which is today.. Happy birthday dad.. and went back at 8 30, and everyone let me stay with him the whole time i was at the hospital.. from 8 30 to about 11 or so.. so im grateful for that.. i wanted all the time i could get with him... i told him how everyones been praying for him and asking about him, and tho he didnt talk much, to sleepy from all the medication, he nodded and said ya.. i talked to him for a little bit but could tell he was tired, so i just sat there and rubbed his hand and arm.. my mom told me that the whole time shes in there shes been rubbing it, he really likes it.. so i took on the duty of the hand rubbing, im thinking thats coming from years of all of us gettin tickled by grandma.. she spoiled us.. he had a bit of a temperture last nite, but thats gone away today... hes hooked up to so many wires, that i just stared at the screen most of the time to see what each line meant, and made sure since i know so much about hospitals and where all the levels are suppose to be, not.. i would see his breaths per minute drop and panic, then actually saw he was breathing and calmed down.. obviously not an accurate reading.. but i jumped right up and stood right next to him.. ha ha im sure he was sick of me by the time i left.. but o well.. i took him up a dr pepper, his favorite drink, in a bottle and got told by him and the nurses that it had to be in a cup with ice from the fountain, hes a picky little butt... i know hes been craving one.. they just wanted to make sure he was eating and swallowing today before he could get one... but i talked to my dad today and said hes eaten a little and drank.. they gave him a lunch but he didnt eat much, im sure it still hurts.. but its a blessing that hes already able to eat.. and they sat him up all the way today, and dad said he did really good till the last little bit of it and then it made him pretty sore, but im sure he liked being able to sit up after lying down in pretty much one position for a couple days.. before his surgery he told mom that he was tired of looking at ceiling tiles, cuz he was all the way flat on the bed, so i said id bring a life size picture of me to hang on the ceiling didnt hear his reaction to that one, but im sure he thought i was pretty retarded.. but hey i think thats a pretty good picture to look at =) ... they are still saying that he probably wont walk, but we are all really optimistic about it and know that miracles happen everyday.. so we keep hoping for the best, and i hope he is too... its going to be a big life style adjustment for everyone but we are all preparing ourselves for the next few months to do anything we can to help out.. my dad has been up with him the whole time since sunday, and im sure will be up there most of the time with him.. lance has been wanting him with him the majority of the time, which i would want my daddy too.. so i think thats helped him a lot.. my moms heading back up there friday morning with my grandma to see him and will come back sunday.. we dont know if my dad will bring her back and come for a day or so then head up there agian, or im hoping i get to go up saturday after work and stay till sunday nite.. i feel like i need to be up there, but know i need to be helping at the resturant, but its hard not driving up there no matter what to be with him.. i know hed do the same for me.. but i told my keelie that im going to try and be up there as often as possible.. i had a hard time coming home today, and cried when we had to leave this morning.. which im sure thats also coming from a lack of sleep, i havent slept much since it happened.. but then had a hard time working today.. my mind is always on lance, so i made a lot of mistakes today and im sure made work harder on carson and rochelle i just am having a hard time functioning being back home.. but am grateful i got to see him even if it was just for a couple hours.. but i know we are all going to get thru this we just have to be there for eachother thru it all and we will be fine.. and i know that lance and keelie are amazingly strong and will get thru this too... lance has been thru a lot in his life and has came out so much stronger... and i admire him so much for it.. things like this really make you realize how life can change in a heartbeat and we have to cherish every moment... i appreciate everyones love and concerns.. we have been getting emails or calls left and right, especially my parents with a ton of support from everywhere.. and its gratefully appreciated.. we have even had people taking care of my dads hayfields.. talk about support.. i will keep everyone informed on everything thats going on here and facebook.. i love you all

tac